scribble a few things off the list

yesterday morning i slept in very late. when i did wake up i spent most of the morning writing that long fucking update. then i watched arrested development with bridget. then went to work from 4 to 9. after work i went home, made some phone calls and then met lauren jenni and marc at 711. got slurpees (well i didn't) and we just hung out and loitered for a little bit. then we went to main street. tiff and sandra met us their. jenni and marc left shortly later. equipped with a scooter, a glow in the dark frisbee and a pack of Virginia slims found in the parking lot, we went to the gazebo behind the courthouse. we pretty much sat out their and talked about friends and inferno and told old stories. pam and rudy came out later. we splashed the water on the rails at eachother and threw the frisbee in the dark. then me lauren sandra and tiff went to dunkin donuts. saw chris s their. after that i drove lauren home. and then took sandra and tiff back to pams house and i went home. didn't actually get home until about 5.

today i woke up at 9 for work. worked until 3. it was hell. just a terrible day at work. after work, i came home, slept shortly, then lauren called and woke me up at 4 thirty. i met her tiff sandra and sasha on court st. we went to friendly grounds. sandra kicked my ass in checkers and in chess. we didn't have this brutal second game of chess that was a tie (it was really just a tie cause we both didn't care at all anymore). we walked back to bucks, but got totally fucking drenched in the rain. it was fun. then everyone sorta went their own ways. i decided to walk over to bucks to see the show. ran into dale and alex on main st. they came with me. missed kara's set. met corey their. randomly saw adam k, marc, blunder, tom, jill and tony their too. kyle met us there, we were basically loud and rude during the show. everyone left, and it was just me dale alex kyle and corey on main street, until dale left. we shouted french words, and climbed street signs in the moments after the rain. me and alex popped a balloon and it sounded like a gun shot. we listened to cky volume one in alexs car. then decided to waste time at borders. i ran into lauren and court and other people outside union hotel. they were eating dinner their, and heard all the yelling i had participated in. met kyle corey and alex at borders, wasted time until ten, then went to applebee's. jess called me and told me she was coming too, so her, lenae and pam came along too and that made me very happy. we were loud and cursed a lot. nothing new. after half price app dinner i went back to pams with jess and lenae for a little bit. then left, picked up bridget and came home.

tomorrow i have to wake up real early, and drive to long island with jenni. 90 fucking miles. fuck i hope we have fun. i have to get and cash my paycheck before we leave too. tomorrow is going to be long. jenni is going to have to do some driving. i also want to clean my room still. and sew my clothes. and cut my hair. and finish/start mix tapes for jess, cayce, bridget, my mom and some other people. i also want to be able to scratch more things off the list. stuff is good. i still regret a lot, and miss even more, but i can't change how people feel. the past is past, the future will be better.


oh yeah, emilyn brodsky's greatest tits is really great. i suggest everyone buy it.

"recognize that you are truly a miracle every day,
even if you are miserable every day"

(picture by konstantine, from courtlandt land show on monday)